before i actually thought of blogging i was thinking what the hell i should do to kill time.i seriously didnt thought of blogging when the fact is that i was bloghopping!weird huh?


HAH!weird..that sounds pretttyyy familiarr.


so its only late february.another whole month to go before school starts.thats is if my appeal is accepted.& i still havent find a proper job.my mind is still stucked to BoonLay Secondary.i keep wanting to go back there.& when i go back there,im reminded of stuffs,people & ofcourse,UNWANTED MEMORIES.aiyahhh but what to do?im boredddd to the death at home.i need to spice up my life with something.suddenly i miss doing free writing.i keep having this urge to want to do free writing.so guys,if anyone needs help in free writing,here's your man. =)



i can't wait for school to start.how i wish i could fast forward all the way to 13 April.i want to step out of this whatever it is i am in now.this hard to describe thing im in now.i know all this doesnt make any sense but thats exactly how i feel.sometimes sad,confused,happy like whatthehell.i keep saying to people that sometimes things dont go the way we want it to be and i realise that i myself sometimes dont see that.i find myself in a position where people are using my lines to advise me.contradicting huh..i guess it is TRUE that sometimes things just DONT go the way I want it to be.come on Sharul just blend it.chey aul nak step self motivate diri pulak.


things come and go in life.one example is friends.one moment they can be there for you.calling you up in the morning(morning like 3AM,4AM) just to ask if you are fine.the next thing you know,they fuck you upside down.i gave it a hard thought.what does it really mean by friends?i ask myself do friends do that?do friends just be there temporarily or stick with you in every moment there is possible?who are my friends?who are the people in my life that can be labelled true friends?questions in which i will never really find the CORRECT answers.answers can be found but CORRECT answers will never really exist in this kind of question.


sometimes i try to see the rational behind all this things that happen.& sometimes i find out that it actually reflects back to me.maybe i do stuffs in which people dont actually like?i dont know.i really dont know.everytime i am hit with such a situation ill start to get paranoid.ill keep blaming myself for things that happen and at the end of the day ill just feel bloody stupid i thought that way.yeah man i know it sounddsss reaaallllyyy stupid.


im tired already.till next time then.

oh anw, Happy Birthday Akbar. =D


You will never see.never ever see how much this heart yearns for you.
I Give Up Now.Im Sorry.I Give Up. =(

before i actually thought of blogging i was thinking what the hell i should do to kill time.i seriously didnt thought of blogging when the fact is that i was bloghopping!weird huh?


HAH!weird..that sounds pretttyyy familiarr.


so its only late february.another whole month to go before school starts.thats is if my appeal is accepted.& i still havent find a proper job.my mind is still stucked to BoonLay Secondary.i keep wanting to go back there.& when i go back there,im reminded of stuffs,people & ofcourse,UNWANTED MEMORIES.aiyahhh but what to do?im boredddd to the death at home.i need to spice up my life with something.suddenly i miss doing free writing.i keep having this urge to want to do free writing.so guys,if anyone needs help in free writing,here's your man. =)



i can't wait for school to start.how i wish i could fast forward all the way to 13 April.i want to step out of this whatever it is i am in now.this hard to describe thing im in now.i know all this doesnt make any sense but thats exactly how i feel.sometimes sad,confused,happy like whatthehell.i keep saying to people that sometimes things dont go the way we want it to be and i realise that i myself sometimes dont see that.i find myself in a position where people are using my lines to advise me.contradicting huh..i guess it is TRUE that sometimes things just DONT go the way I want it to be.come on Sharul just blend it.chey aul nak step self motivate diri pulak.


things come and go in life.one example is friends.one moment they can be there for you.calling you up in the morning(morning like 3AM,4AM) just to ask if you are fine.the next thing you know,they fuck you upside down.i gave it a hard thought.what does it really mean by friends?i ask myself do friends do that?do friends just be there temporarily or stick with you in every moment there is possible?who are my friends?who are the people in my life that can be labelled true friends?questions in which i will never really find the CORRECT answers.answers can be found but CORRECT answers will never really exist in this kind of question.


sometimes i try to see the rational behind all this things that happen.& sometimes i find out that it actually reflects back to me.maybe i do stuffs in which people dont actually like?i dont know.i really dont know.everytime i am hit with such a situation ill start to get paranoid.ill keep blaming myself for things that happen and at the end of the day ill just feel bloody stupid i thought that way.yeah man i know it sounddsss reaaallllyyy stupid.


im tired already.till next time then.

oh anw, Happy Birthday Akbar. =D


You will never see.never ever see how much this heart yearns for you.
I Give Up Now.Im Sorry.I Give Up. =(